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Last online: October 31st, 2012, 5:27 pm
member since: April 6th, 2007
title: Starling (verified)
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Read before messaging me. Cheers.
Oh and by the way, I'm not a dick, but if you have nothing better
to say than "Hi" or "Hey what's up?" I won't bother replying.
AND it does my head in when you can't
use proper English. Please respect.
I am the guy, you can see sitting on a bench on the the street
just watching people and looking terrified.
I am the guy who can act like he don't care about a thing in the world,
but can be incredibly hurt when the wrong thing is said to him.
I am the guy who does stupid things to keep his mind occupied
so he doesn't fall apart and go insane.
I am the guy who can have mood swings worse than anything
because he's bi-polar, and he's not scared to admit it.
I am the guy who can sit in the middle of a crowded room and just
cry if he feels the need to.
I am the guy who has a hard time opening up to people because he's
been hurt so many times.
I am the guy who listens to music that no one could ever dream that
he listens to because of how he looks.
I am the guy who writes poetry that sometimes makes no sense to
someone else, but what he writes about is his feelings and his mind.
I am the guy who can be immature and crazy but when needed
can be the most sincere and best shoulder to cry on.
I am the guy who can look at a person and go "You're gorgeous"
and mean it without hitting on them, but giving them an honest compliment.
I am the guy who can sit in the rain and think of nothing at all
but yet have the world on his mind.
I am the guy who hardly ever smiles, but when he does, he can light up
an entire room.
I am the guy who has the lowest self esteem ever, and will always
argue against you if you give him a compliment.
This is me. My name is Talen and this is the kind of guy I am. Take it or leave it.
Look over there, look at the mime,
His constructed emotions, visual effects.
The clown on the street that keeps everyone entertained
Take a closer look, it's me.
My emotions in an invisible box made of air
Nothing said, nothing shared.
That face carefully painted to hide expressions
It always smiles, it always hides.
See those pale eyes in the backround of it all?
It's who I am without the mime.
Would you dare to enter my twisted mind,
for only a day, only a moment just to see,
if you could ever love me?
"There are illusions so real the metaphor of a joke is the content of a pharmaceutical pill."
"Is seems as if the universe is being reflected in a watermelon without taste."
I'm not here to impress, I'm just me.
Life is an illusion based on perfection that lacks the ability to
explain what perfection really is.
Slaughtered by emotions and smothered by expectations.
Expectations so high that no matter what way you bend, you can
never live up to them.
Dreams are a joke. Youâll have them, but never be able to
live up to them unless they are realistic enough that you can live
them out in your back yard.
People live in an image of themselves that creates their space of
perfection, and if you donât live up to their standards, you are no more
than worthless trash under their shoes. They will look at you in disgust
and think; âIâd never dream of involving myself with someone like that
in any way. They shouldnât even have been born.â
The mirror they look in reflects a different picture though.
A picture of a lost little child, trying their best to make it seem like thereâs
not a trouble in the world and that they deserve better than anyone else.
The wall made off lies that theyâve created to shut their feelings away.
In a world were the word perfection didnât exist, people would still look
at others and find their faults, blinded by their hallucinating minds,
telling themselves that there could never be anything wrong with them.
I sleep to dream, and Iâm awake just to feel.
But everyday I tell myself, Iâm not gonna let anyone pull me down,
Iâm stronger than that. They canât hurt me anymore.
"Life is a game,
Paradise is a dream
and Hell only exist on earth..."
Amazing quotes and convos by me and friends;
Quote by my friend, laying on the couch with her boyfriend before going to sleep, 23/2 2009;
"There's a lump of pizza in my stomach.
It's like a pretzel, but more compact and with more cheese in it."
Quotes by me on New Years when I was high and laying in a dark room, staring up at the ceiling;
"It's so dark and lovely, and then the colours come, and then I like, die."
"There's only rainbows and unicorns"
Me sleep deprived and random.
Me; "oh god, fuck me! I'm sooo tired!...shoot me now or
forever hold your peace!"
Cathy; "I will forever hold my peace."
Me; *mumbles something* "Wait....WHAT!?!"
*bursts out laughing my ass off and cant stop*
Cathy; "I will forever hold my peace!"
Me; *laughing fit for 15 minutes*
Cathy; "WTF TALEN!?! What's so funny!?!?! Tell me!!!"
Me; *tries to tell her but only gets half way through sentence
before I start laughing again*
Cathy; "SERIOUSLY! What The FUCK!?!"
Me; *calms down enough to tell her* "I thought you said that you'll
forever hold your PENIS!" *laughing fit again*
Cathy; *laughs her ass off with me*
Random moment on skype! Amazing xD
[11:10:40 PM] Diede: If you're a unicorn
[11:10:43 PM] Diede: may I ride you?
[11:10:44 PM] Diede: .... whoa
[11:10:46 PM] Talen: O.O
[11:10:51 PM] Diede: that sounded even more wrong than I thought it would x.x
[11:10:52 PM] Talen: oh my snap...
Well...what can I say? This girl is probably one of THE most amazing
girls you will ever come across in life. She's beautiful, smart, funny,
amazing to talk to, and will always listen and try to help if you need it.
I've come to know you, and I think I can honestly say, I am very
grateful to have you in my life. You can make me smile even when I
don't want to, and it's something that is incredibly rare.
I've only came across a small number of people who can manage it.
But you're one of them. And I love you to bits for it. You've got an
amazing personality, and I know you will always be there for me.
No matter what. Even if it's just for the need to vent. But you know
that I will do the same for you too whenever you need it.
You're amazing love, never forget that.
People that stop talking to you for no reason whatsoever.
|Favorite songs at the moment.
Plan Three - Brush It Off
Safetysuit - Crash
U-KISS - Neverland
Five Finger Death Punch - Far From Home
Hodges - My Side Of The Story
Liquido - Narcotic
ONE OK ROCK - Answer Is Near
U-KISS - Tick Tack
Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe
(Thanks to Hannah >_