Poetry
| CAGED | Jul 10, 07 @ 4:22pm |
| The ceiling is slowly coming down on me
Crushing me Afraid to cry for help because it might crush me There is so much pressure I am disparate to scream But I know screaming won¡Çt solve anything The pressure will just grow harder Voices are yelling and lecturing me constantly I can¡Çt do anything to stop it No one could ever understand Understand the emotions that I have caged up inside Understand the screaming, yelling, and crying The pressure that I keep locked up behind cold steel bars But the bars are shaking and breaking The unbreakable lock is being broken Shadows are creeping out through the bars I am being dragged deeper and deeper into the darkness This morning I glanced out my window and I saw baby bunnies outside playing Running around freely Bouncing up the steep hills as if they weighed absolutely nothing They looked so happy No worries No pressure No rules It was like the only emotion they contained was happiness I became jealous of them They were so free And I was locked up in this torcher chamber I wished that I could be a bunny Play all day long with my friends Stay out as late as I wanted to Not being tormented by the thought of moving away from my friends, missing homework, or failing my classes But I can¡Çt just magically turn into a rabbit and hop away I¡Çm stuck here Trapped inside myself I wish I could spout wings and fly away with the birds But this bird is caged Heart bound by cold steel ribbons My heart is waking one way and my mind is walking the other I¡Çm like two people stuck in one body One body that I am destroying The ceiling is coming down harder and harder I can¡Çt breath I¡Çm suffocating I try to pray every night for things to be better the next day But it only gets worse every day I¡Çm always trying to leave, to go anywhere, to get out That¡Çs when I do something stupid Hands grab me by the arms and force me to stay Stay home Stay downstairs in my dark room Thinking about what¡Çs wrong with me Thinking about everything I do wrong Thinking about how everyone seems to be happy but me I don¡Çt even know what happiness really is anymore I don¡Çt think I even know the difference between right and wrong, Seeing how everything I do seems to be wrong I need to get away To get away from this prison To get away from the screaming, yelling, and lectures To once again be free and happy To be uncaged TO be unleashed To actually go out with friends and family and do things like a normal happy person I need someone to open the cage door and pull me out I need someone to understand me please........... let me out |
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| The Monster in Me | Jul 10, 07 @ 4:22pm |
| There is a monster in me.
It scrapes and claws at the inside of my ribs. It sings me an erie, sad song to make me a brought down and depressing teenager.It tells me to hate, hurt, despise, and cause pain, It tells me to bleed. It tells me to feel pain. It tells me to pick up that razorblade hidden in my sesret place. It tells me to cut open my wrists and watch the blood fall upon the pages of my pain. It tells me that i am always wrong and that i can't do anything right. It makes me hate myself when i look down at my arms and see what i've done. It's always chanting for me to start crying. It tells me to hurt other people and bring them down. It tells me to look at others with a depressing stare and make them cry. It says i don't know what happiness really even is anymore, i think it's right. Now i look down at my arms and i see scares, stitching, bloody scabs, and sorrow... There is a monster in me. arielle |
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| Dearly Beloved | Jul 10, 07 @ 4:21pm |
| Dearly beloved
I love you with every breateing second of every day My heart skips a beat every time i hear your voice Gental blue eyes look bac at mine and complete me Kisses sweeter than candy The most adorable smile tht warms my heart Your scent catches my soul and holds it tight You have the face of an angel Your beautiful words wrap me in love My world of darkness and pain fades away in your presence When I dance with you I feel like I'm dancing on water filled of stars under the moonlit sky The feeling of living through death flys away when you smile at me My wondering mind rests on you When you kiss me I can catch a glimpse of heaven You make me so much happier than anyone else can You fill the gapeing whole in my heart Every moment spent with you is more presous than life itself I Love you with all of my heart arielle |
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| A Broken Forever | Jul 9, 07 @ 11:23pm |
| Cut out my heart and stab it
Rip out my soul and eat it It's the end of our forever and I dont need it Forget my heart Forget it's chase Forget my life Forget my face I hate you some, I love you some I burned our romance novel My once beautiful world fell away And you left my happy little You're killing me with silence Time won't make things better I broke our simple romance You broke my heart forever I'm living life alone Your silent cofessional has driven me mad You've twisted my sanity And made my life so sad It was ment to be I suppose For our love to fade and die I guess thats just how it goes You live,love and cry I thought we'd always be together The end would come never But that's what you would call a broken forever arielle |
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| All of Your Tears | Jul 9, 07 @ 11:21pm |
| My heart is like a jar and every time you have a problem I try my best to fix it and another tear drop fills the jar
Every time there is less and less room for all of it yet they don't stop falling I don't want people to have any sorrows so I try to rid of them But instead I end up making them my own Your life is my life and if you are unhappy I am the same I cannot move on knowing someone is dying inside and has no one to help them so I take it from them With me I carry not only my own pain but everyone else's too The jar is overfilling and the rain keeps coming It's getting too heavy to carry around And if a tear falls I must catch it I catch all of your tears And no one even knows of mine I hide behind this fake smile and laughter But nobody knows that half the tears I catch are my own You can't hide your sadness from me I will know And it will fall on me like a stone wall It drags me to this dark damp and very terrifying place that none of you could possibly imagine You can cry on my shoulder I want to be there for you But I can't promise it will be handled on my side Because I know it won't be Your tears fall in my hands and your wait falls on my shoulders Why are you crying? Be happy that you only have your problems on your mind all the time and not everyone's Because my heart is a jar filled with your tears Arielle |
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| Kill My Emotions & We'll Fade Together | Jul 9, 07 @ 11:07pm |
| I love you,
You are my whole world I'd give my life just to be with you But these emotions hold me back from you I don't want to say something that i mean now But could become a lie later somehow It hurts so badly when I want to say forever because it may not always be together But please, all I ask of you is love me for real& forever And I will do the same I cant stay still I want time to stop but its slipping through my fingers Like im at the end of my rope All these thoughts, fears, emotions wont leave me alone I cant make them stop and Im afraid im filled to the top Kill my emotions beacause I want to belive in us & Bleed my life because I love you We need to hold on tighter because you never know how long forever really is and I want forever to be for real Lets dance on water and kiss in the rain Hold eachother close and kill the pain Lets stay away from the beginning so we never find the end in our hearts our love will wend Lets run away from this hell & live forever we will never have to sever We will live together We will love together We will die together We will fade together And be in love Forever Arielle |
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