In my Design class, we were assigned to create a video compilation of a moment that significantly altered our lives; positive or negative. That moment was the loss of my brother. He was everything to me.
I was nearly choked to death by my now ex-boyfriend, and the primary reason I even survived is because he let me go. He claims he's sorry. I'm not, nor will ever be convinced again. I idiodically placed myself into a relationship situation that caused me to be beaten and verbally abused. Consequently I formed a low opinion of myself, and I was convinced that I was worthless without him, and that no one would ever consider pursuing a future with me except for him...so I stayed. For 3 months.
I believe I've failed to comprehend that I have done nothing but support him, love him, soothe him when he was scared, calm him when he was angry, and stay with him when I was all he had...and his only form of gratitude was STILL violence. I'll never understand the aspect of human nature that causes one to abuse someone that loves them.
No one deserves to be put through the emotional turmoil of someone they love degrading them daily. No matter how secure they make you feel at times, and regardless of how many times they may TELL you they love you, it's not worth the bruises and senseless tears. I can't stress enough how important it is to consider your own well being while getting into a relationship. I'd hate for any of you to go through this to any extent.
current mood: Contemplative current music: Coheed and Cambria- Three Evils