Complaints
| I feel so damn ugly. | Nov 11, 09 @ 5:09am |
| "You should move your hair from your face, you're so pretty."
Hardly. If I were to pull my hair back, I'd scare so many. Ehh. Screw school. Screw the morons IN school. Screw crushed up pills. Screw not having any food. Screw my inability to perform. Screw my ugly fucking face. Screw the world. Screw the assholes in it. Screw feelings. Screw love. Screw it. |
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current mood: depressed current music: Yoko Shimomura |
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| Oh my... | Nov 4, 09 @ 11:17pm |
| You look like a filthy whore, you. Disgusting, is that really, truly you? You're not in the least bit appealing.
FUCK. I hate this medicine, I never get the right prescription. This isn't ideal. Stomach twisting, feelings as well, the room is spinning...I'm falling down, down, down...then it stops. Head is beating, why not my heart? Eyes are burning, thoughts are swarming, mixing, blending...are you listening?!?! - I can barely breathe... - ...are you there to save me? Like you promised? x I remember the lies, those tears I cried. I love you. I love YOU. I LOVE YOU! But I slowly...oh, so very slowly...learned to hate you. I loveD you. Old feelings rushed back, just as quickly pushed them away, too much at once rots the mind away. Sanity isn't my biggest concern...I'm losing what I have this moment. I blame you, I always will. That's a filthy sin to do~ xx Although, I tried to forgive you, believing, BELIEVING I could...considering that...I used to love you. That made it possible. I've made my biggest mistake, no! Not likely...loving you was my biggest mistake, forgiving you was my second. Silly, SILLY girl. You cause a riot, you know how to make them laugh. How stupid you turned out to be...x; X X YOU HAVE SOMEONE TO LOVE NOW. STOP holding on to that silly memory, that dream you had that night. There's only that kind of happiness in dreams anyways. No...of course not. Let him go, LET HIM GO. Oh, I'm sorry, you DID. I meant the memory. Don't let what you have now go. There you go, you made him cry again. YOU'RE DISGUSTING. You're SELFISH. Xx xX It's almost over, see that light? Run towards it, it'll end. Coward, you let this one go. Say sorry, say sorry. Have you a brain? Have you a heart? Oh, I forgot, hardly. - Falling... - in... - x |
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| Heh. | Mar 16, 09 @ 8:40pm |
| I'm all alone.
Stupid boy left me for a friend. Heh. |
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current mood: shitty current music: A)HEG)*EGHA |
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| Enough Of A title for yuh? | Mar 1, 09 @ 12:36am |
| I almost forgot how to blog here, it's been a while.
I feel like total shizzits. For some reason....SATURDAY [that's right, yesterday xD] decided to be a bitch. Woke up to hear myself mumbling his name. xD I missed him that much. Ha, guess who? My mom was like blah blah blah.....left and saw Coraline. Yes, I could have gone. I've been wanting to see that movie. But, I didn't. I felt like shit, why? The day before. What happened? Maybe I'll tell you. Anyways, I decided to sit at home. And of course, my oh so wonderful big brother decided to get high. He was giggling, and the house reeked. And then invited his idiotic friends over. It's funny how they find it necessary to scream at each other when they are merely two feet apart. Oh yeah, brought home a pack of beer too. Not only being high as a cloud but drunk as well. Lovely. It's amazing how they are still here. I wonder if his friends even have anywhere else to live. Hobos! Oh yeah, and to top it off, I'm sick too. And totally snapped. Hurray. And got yelled at by some moron. Because I "act like my problems are worse than others." HA! I don't. I just complain too much. Can't help it. It's better than bottling it in or cutting myself, aye? Complaining randomly on the internet. He didn't have to read it. I wasn't pushing onto people. His choice, moron. And I can type how I want to type. I. Don't. Look. Retarded. Doing. This. I think it makes one look retarded if they type like so: i cunt speec orh speelll. :B Something like that. The only reason why it bothers me is because, I try so hard not to be selfish, and one of the few times I want to be, because I'm bothered.... I get yelled at on aim by someone who rarely ever talks to me. Nice. Eh but whatever. I usually post my business because no one ever reads it. Because, no one ever cares. And in a way, I'm kind of amazed that this annoying asshole decided to read my complaints, instead of one of my closer friends. Not many of them were online, but still. I think Dori bothered me a bit over it. Cos' she wanted to know. But that was it. I feel much better, but not completely. I cut myself again. Hurray for bad venting. :D David's gonna be real sad. Oh, which reminds me, I think he hates me. Friday I made him mad at me. He knows he was mad but he denies it. This is as far into detail as I will go. Why? Cos' I said so. |
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current mood: Extremely shitty, worried, PLEASEDUNLEAVEMEH. >__< current music: Stupid MF- Mindless Self Indulgence |
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| I am lonely | Jan 11, 09 @ 4:15pm |
| I am usually not the one to post blogs, but I really have nothing better to do but complain about how I feel at the moment.
I feel really sick. I thought I was getting better but then my mom fed me and it got worse. So if I get up to fast or move in a violent way my stomach will explode like piñata and I will want to kill myself. I really would like some company, preferably David. D: He hasn't come over in a bit. I miss his hugs. Dx Part of me also wants to run through the lands of Target with Julia and Aliya. We haven't done that in a while...I also wouldn't mind going to Starbucks. Mmm...chocolatey-ness. I guess I prefer beverage over food right now...I'm dehydrating. -_- The font is also starting to hurt my eyes. I really want hugs. ;-; |
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current mood: Sickishness, Sadish, Very Lonely current music: Inevitable- Anberlin |
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