FUCK!, FUCK!,FUCK!!!!
| My Life... | Mar 18, 09 @ 10:43pm |
| Hi my name is Sam Hollopeter, for those whom don't know me that well. I am writing this because I'm frustrated and ready to give up. Now days my life consists of probation, a few friends, and depression. I have an Aunt and her boyfriend who i live with, they are pretty much the only thing that keeps me composed and out of trouble now days. Before everything started going wrong I had an awesome job, and i had my own place in ST. Clair Shores, Mi. it all started when i was laid off and lost my job, i tryed so hard to find work every in the area knowing i would be riding a bus around Detroit for work. One month went by and the time came for me to receive my eviction notice, not having anywhere togo i had to return to northern michigan and this is where things got even worse. After living back up north for a year i got in some trouble with some friends. Six months later i was charged with breaking and entering, conspiracy of breaking and entering, and larceny of alcohol and tabacco. I was sentenced to 9 months in jail with another 5 months held in obeyance, and 2 years of probation. As time went on, i still looked for work non-stop. Having no luck finding a job, i was put in jail for a month and went to rehab, because i couldn't pay my fines. it is now 1 year later, and i still cannot find work for the life of me. I survive on small side jobs like fixing peoples cars and and building / fixing computers (i barley make it by). This is the short version of what i have went through, it dosent include the things i have lost because of shuting people out, or just caring ore about myself. Here are a few things i have lost... Great job, My own home, Friends, Fiancee, more Friends, Familly, and just to sum it up... almost everything. This is why i dont talk much, and i dont let people in. I am anything but a nice / beatiful person, i am fucked up in the head, and i am to the point where i don't care much anymore. maybe things will change over time, maybe they won't.... I don't think I know who I am anymore, I almost don't want to know who i am. The whole point of this is that i had to get this out if not, i am just going to rear myself apart day by day, i hope these thoughts will soon stop racing through my head.
I am also sorry to those whom I have treated like shit, I dont need names because they know who they are if there reading this, i don't expect you to forgive me. |
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current mood: ftw! current music: killswitch! |
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