
My whole life is a dark room, one big dark room
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May 22, 09 @ 5:52am |
Shibby ness [adjective] --
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St0n3rshibby420 [adjective] --
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current mood: hehe tickled pink when I saw this
current music: manic laughter |
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| as busy as a Dog on Dope.... |
May 22, 09 @ 5:09am |
So,...
I've just been super busy making tons of drawings and costumes for A-kon 20 comming up next thursday! YAY 6 MORE DAYS!!!!!!
I'm such a nerd.
Anywho's I've done 8 out of 9 drawing I'm entering in the art Auction. I've still gotta get 7 frames for my art and a white school skirt for my Harley Quinn Batman: Arkham Asylum costume.
But other then that I'm bored as hell right now.
I just painted my faye valentine picture tonight, MY PRIDE AND JOY! Which hopefully I can sell for a good $60-$75, but who knows.
I just hope i can get this all done in time for the hanging deadline on thursday. I just hope my eyes did pick more the I could chew...hehe.
So the costumes for A-kon are(DRUM ROLL PLEASE!)
Friday: Rogue and Gambit.
Saturday: Soi Fon and Kenpachi(from Bleach).
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Of Course
Harley Quinn-Batman:Arkham Asylum and A Zuit Suit wearing Pimped out Joker for the masquerade ball Saturday night and the rest of Kon Sunday.
Also if your readin this, check out my artwork on myspace cuz, I need feedback and suggestion and I'm always open to CONSTRUCTIVE critism.
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current mood: tired, wiped out, excited, anxious, and many more...
current music: to much to name.. |
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| It's Been a While - pun intended |
Nov 25, 08 @ 4:20am |
so i was thinking on how vf and myspace and such sux big balls these days. I remembered DS so i'm back here. Although It's of pointless persiverance that I return. Nonetheless it gives a little to pass the time and catch up on my web skillz.
Since I graduated cosmotology skool I obtained my first job at a halloween store, which was AWESOME! I still haven't taken my cosmotology test tho, sadly the year and 2 months I spent in skool I've sorta come to think of as a waste. Yes, I have a bit of test anxiety about the written, i'm horrible at written tests. But for the money i'v spent to dig myself into the hole i've been living in.I deserve a good like and a nice home. I hate these 4 walls that trap my existance in this room-like prison. I wanna get out but i can't, it sucks....I NEED A JOB!
Well at least i still have my t.v., music, and xbox360 to pass the time...... |
current mood: ugh something i can express right now
current music: Love Will Tear Us Apart - The Cure |
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| WTF!!! |
Oct 25, 05 @ 3:25am |
So my gf, Jaime, won't return my calls or messages.
WHAT THE FUCK?!?
Why do people do this shit to me, just dissapear off the face of the earth and not ask me to come along. They don't tell me if i do something wrong. Does everyone expect me to know everything? Because if they do their fucking crazy! I miss my Jaime, I want to know what i did, I love her. I care about her. We've been together for like 3 months now and now she won't even call me, nothing.
WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO?
I don't want to loose the only thing keeping me alive.
I can't stand this, she's making me crazy. I know that she loves me and I love her. But are these just empty words that she has spoken to me, or does she mean it. The thoughts in my head are telling me otherwise, but my heart might be saying something different. I don't know. Does she even know what she is doing to me? Why won't she do anything. Well...
WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO?
I'm not much in a relationship, i'v always known that because i'v only had like 3 boyfriends and 2 girlfriends. But if i do something wrong can't she just tell me. I thoguht this relationship would be different...but i was wrong.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG?
I'm sorry, i know i'm not much of a girlfriend, but i tried and that was the best i could do, Jaime. But I don't know if that was good enough for you, if it was you would've called, you would've replied, you would've done something other than nothing, or would you have? I want to make things work between us.
I LOVE YOU, JAIME!
I don't know if i said that enough, but i do, and i mean it. So just tell me the truth Jaime, do you love me still, or have your feelings changed for me? Do you want to try to make thing work or not, i need to know,...
WHAT THE FUCK I SHOULD DO?
...someone, anyone help me out!!!...
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current mood: Depressed for the first time in a while.
current music: Seether |
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| Really...Does it matter what i write here?!?No!!!No ones going to read this!!! |
Sep 1, 05 @ 5:11am |
 Your soul is broken. You are living through a lot of pain everyday that you have to deal with, which is making you sorrowful. No one ever stays by your side when you truly need them and no one ever will. Everything is hopeless and tragic and you keep yearning for the day you will be free from pain. Love is unlikely to happen to you because you isolate yourself and are suspicious of peoples motives. You stand in the shadows of the world, watching what you can never have. The bruises you carry never seems to heal, your mind is dark and no one seems to understand or wants to help. As always, you will be alone in the world, fighting your dark thoughts by yourself.
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Hmmm, i really don't wirte that much in online journal unless i'm really bored or venting. So HA!, I made you look at this god forsaking boring page for nothing. but one question?, Are you "down" with the clown? j/k
 "Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek valuation beyond reality"
Life is unfullfilling for you, and you aren't very fond of it. What you like is your own imaginative world, which can be your daydreams, stories you write or anything similar. You always prefer that before the actual life. To people you come off as quite lonesome, and you may wish you had more friends, but you are more of a hoper than someone who takes action. That is how you remain lonely. Or maybe you just don't find anyone who you can relate to. Inside you feel empty, like you are missing something important that you can't quite put a finger on what it is. Somehow you wish to be swept away from the normality and led into something extraordinary. This has yet to happen, and you keep on feeling dissapointed with the little that life has to offer. At least you continue to express yourself through art/writing/poems/daydreaming.
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 Your connection with darkness is through your depression. Hated, sad and often feeling lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away from the world since you don't want to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives you the understanding you need to get through, it's your "therapy". Or you express yourself through art or writing. Chances are you're also an anti-social person, who only likes being with close friends, if even that. The world has finally showed it's true face for you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in the future, but right now you're just hiding away from the world. Who needs people anyway?
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src="http://live.quizilla.com/user_images/P/PainfulBliss/1117238538_Power_Fly.JPG"> Your power is: The ability to fly
Explanation: This powers speaks pretty much for itself. Though you don't need wings for this power,you can fly anyway. Some people may consider it as telekinesis since they can also fly, but you can't make material things move like they can. This ability could be a relaxing activity when you want to get away from everyday troubles. Also it is good when sneaking upon an enemy since it makes no sound. When going over to the "dark side" the power could be used to harrass and break into building through windows etc. You are quite similar to this power since you like to have your head in the clouds. Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a little too far you might be zooned out all the time, even when you are having a conversation. Your desires and/or goals tend to be unrealistic even if you know those would probably never happen. Travelling is something you would be interested in doing since seeing exotic scenery fits with your fantasies of escaping your plain life. You can also have some creative ability (writer, playing an instrumen etc) that interests you. Negative aspects: The whole reason you may be escaping life could be fear of being let down by it. So if that would come to happen, and an important dream had been crushed you could get depressed.
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 Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and often try to figure out the meaning of life, why we are all here etc. You may not be so social, and often think twice before acting but those thoughts you have in your mind never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be so concentrated you forget about other things that you have to do. Don't change, this world needs deep people.
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 You're a poisin/jungle dragon!!!
You love to be one with nature, and tend to keep to yourseld. But you'd like to get more friends, even if it means they trick you, and try to take your treasure. And if you find out about that, or get made at them, you can spit poisin at them! It's your choice if they live or die.
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 Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari) As a person, you think life is just plain painful, horrible and everything else you don't like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean, why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather montone. You feel there is no reason to really be here and feel helpless.
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 Your soul is dead. You've probably been through one too many rough times in your life which has eaten you up from the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat from since you just don't care anymore. Life is meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The good thing though is that you cant be hurt, since you are so distant from the emotional world. Love is something you dont understand or just dont remember. If it was up to you, your life would already be over, but it doesn't make you suicidal. You are probably alone most of the time, looking at the world with a blank stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy has simply gone away. What's left now is only the shell of what used to be you.
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 Your Evanescence song is: Bring me to Life You have been so alone in this world for such a long time, your emotional level is very low. You live in the darkness in your life and mind, and feel helpless about your whole situation. People rarely understand you or why you act like you do. But then there is this person in your life that changes things. He/she understands you and makes you feel alive again. He/she is your ray of hope in your otherwise so dark life.
Now that I know what I'm without you can't just leave me
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If I only knew who this person was they are talking about.
 You are "Atwa" by System of a Down. You were a happy person, thinking you were loved, when in fact you were the opposite. Now, you can't find happiness again. Being unloved is not your thing, and you are now like a zombie, just walking around without a purpose. A living dead..
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god, i love daron malakian, hes sooo sexy!!!!This is my theme song!
 Life has no meaning and humans can't be saved. Although you have an urge to help in someway you give up before you even try. The reason is because you think you're a nobdy and therefor have no meaning to the world and can't help. All you do is watch life pass you by, becoming more deppressed each moment.
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current mood: mood? The computer has moods?,Oh Yes, Yes, Yes!
current music: Tool-Stinkfist and such |
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