| Missin' the butterfly. |
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| Butterfly, I know you've been watching. Mom can feel it too. I just want you to know, I have a new outlook. As many times as you've told me I don't need to cake on so much make up, I still do. But I'm beautiful with and without it. It doesn't matter. And I just feel so much better about things. And I know you're around now for sure. You're making things so much better for me and ma. She cried last night. I don't really know what to say to her when she starts crying. I just bit my lip and tried not to cry with her. You're missed so much, and your memories will live on forever. It's been almost a year now. It still hurts so much, but I know you're not hurting anymore. I feel horrible for all the things I've ever said about how horrible you were. You never understood why I am the way I am. I accept that now. I understand it was how you was raised. I remember every day ma and me would come over there and you would just crack up laughing over the silliest things. And your favorite word "malaky" [sp] you used to crack me up. Especial when you'd tell stories about how ma and the aunts always acted up when they were little. Oh gosh and the stories about how everything was so cheap. You'd taught me so many things, and I will always, always, keep you in my heart and in the family. |
current mood: Missin' her
current music: Transylvanian Concubine |
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