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You look like a filthy whore, you. Disgusting, is that really, truly you? You're not in the least bit appealing.
FUCK. I hate this medicine, I never get the right prescription. This isn't ideal.
Stomach twisting, feelings as well, the room is spinning...I'm falling down, down, down...then it stops. Head is beating, why not my heart? Eyes are burning, thoughts are swarming, mixing, blending...are you listening?!?!
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I can barely breathe...
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...are you there to save me? Like you promised?
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I remember the lies, those tears I cried. I love you. I love YOU. I LOVE YOU! But I slowly...oh, so very slowly...learned to hate you. I loveD you. Old feelings rushed back, just as quickly pushed them away, too much at once rots the mind away. Sanity isn't my biggest concern...I'm losing what I have this moment. I blame you, I always will. That's a filthy sin to do~
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Although, I tried to forgive you, believing, BELIEVING I could...considering that...I used to love you. That made it possible. I've made my biggest mistake, no! Not likely...loving you was my biggest mistake, forgiving you was my second. Silly, SILLY girl. You cause a riot, you know how to make them laugh. How stupid you turned out to be...x;
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YOU HAVE SOMEONE TO LOVE NOW. STOP holding on to that silly memory, that dream you had that night. There's only that kind of happiness in dreams anyways. No...of course not. Let him go, LET HIM GO. Oh, I'm sorry, you DID. I meant the memory. Don't let what you have now go. There you go, you made him cry again. YOU'RE DISGUSTING. You're SELFISH.
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It's almost over, see that light? Run towards it, it'll end. Coward, you let this one go. Say sorry, say sorry. Have you a brain? Have you a heart? Oh, I forgot, hardly.
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Falling...
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in...
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