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my first attempt to let go, and put these secrets into this information ocean.
i am mad. i get by on sin and creation. and prayer. nobody knows what i am. this is the first time that i am saying so.
i have a presence in the conventional world. i have a girlfriend who wants to get married. i am a rising figure in a prestigious field limited to geniuses of our time. and i have a family. of course, they know nothing of what i will chiefly write about here.
lies have always been central to my life. they allow me to feed my hunger in a world that does not permit it. they allow me to avoid criticism, for i am much too sensitive for that. and they let me imbue this austere situation with fantasy, good and bad.
i am interested in communicating with others like me -- those who get by in these late hours, feeding their dark addictions, in secret. but do not contact me with the intention of getting to know me. i cannot let that happen. |
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