I just want this pain to stop.. Don't fucking waste my time..
For starters, my name is Ashton, and I'm a female to male transsexual. I am pre-op, and have been on hormones since February 9th, 2009. I'm hoping to have chest surgery within the next 3-5 years. If this offends you, or you are transphobic, please leave my page and don't waste my time.
I'm a really fun loving person. I absolutely love music, and all kinds actually. I'm really into body modifications as well. Though I've retired several of my piercings, and will be retiring a few more. I currently have two tattoos at the moment, and plan on getting many many more. I am sad that I have to retire a few a my piercings, but you can't exactly be a police officer with stretched lobes or a big ol' nose ring can ya :P
I started college this year, and I plan on majoring in Criminal Justice. After I graduate, I hope to become a police officer. It's something I have always wanted to do, and feel that I need to do. My father has been apart of the police department for 29 years. I plan on staying on with the police department where I live for about 5 years, then transferring to Portland, OR to live my life.
Obviously if you are still reading this then you know I am transgender. I have been struggling with my gender since I was a child. I finally came out of my family and friends July of 2008. And it was the absolute best thing I have ever done. Right after I graduated high school, I was still in such denial, that I was going to join the Army to become a MP (military police). I quickly came to a realization that that would be impossible for me to do without going insane. After I came out, I started seeing a gender therapist some months after. Once I got my letter to start hormones, I found a doctor, and then started injecting 200mg of testosterone once every two weeks into my thighs. I am beyond happy that I am finally becoming the man that I have always wanted to be, and that I should have been.
For those that are interested in watching, I have a channel on YouTube that I've been using to post videos to document my transition and things that go on in my life. Feel free to comment or subscribe.
DO NOT ever ever ever ever ever let ANYONE tell you you're not the most amazing person in the world!!
The people that think otherwise have NO idea what they're talking about.
idc who they are they have no reason to think any less of you or doubt your decisions. you KNOW whats wrong with you and you KNOW what you need to do to fix it.
idc what you are or how you look you're gonna be a fuckin badass rapist til the day you fuckin diiiie.
never stop standing up for yourself and never stop being yourself.
otherwise i'd have to kill you...
i love you bitch!!!!!
PS
i don't even know what happened yet.
just trying to cheer you up. =/
oh and dude i was so tired last night i was falling asleep even though the kids were SCREAMING....